My journey into Atheism and Agnosticism.

So I was asked to write up a story, I was thrilled at the prospect of possibly helping people understand Atheism and/or Agnosticism. My entire goal is for people to be tolerant of others beliefs, and realize theirs isn’t the only belief there is.

As for me, I was raised as a Christian. While we didn’t go to church every Sunday, they did teach me about God. There wasn’t much emphasis on Jesus really but he was of course involved. As I became a teenager, I started really trying the whole praying thing, and i began reading the Bible on my own. I was not a very popular kid, and all I wanted was to be liked and to have a girlfriend of course. So my prayers increased, I wold hang my head out the window staring up at the sky and pray for him to help me. None of these prayers, or any prayer I had ever done had seemed to make any difference and so I began questioning things. The story of God seemed much like a fairy tale to me, just “unreal”. I held true to my “belief” of God through the rest of my high school years, pretending that I never questioned. Of course I didn’t want to be an outcast that questioned the word of God.

My first experience with someone who didn’t believe was a girl who is now my wife. When we began talking and I found out she didn’t believe I practically attacked her, which now I realize was my own insecurities. My discussions with her, with no attacking on her part helped me realize who I really was. Not that she changed me, but she helped me realize that it was ok to not believe or to believe n something other than Christianity.

I have been through stages since then I began as an Atheist, which is the belief that there is no God. Then still questioning things I decided to change to Agnostic, or the idea of not saying there is or isn’t a deity or deities. I have changed back and forth many times but as of right now I say Agnostic. I agree with Lucy in her last post for the most part, but I disagree that in Agnosticism they don’t spend time trying to find out. The term encapsulates those that do continue searching, and those who don’t spend the time.

I have mixed beliefs but the only thing that really covers me for sure is Agnosticism. I believe that parts of the theory of evolution have merit, and I do believe we have evolved from a much simpler form. To me there is to much evidence to deny it. I also have a lot of interest in Buddhist philosophy, I think their ways are very peaceful.

Admittedly I continue reading, learning, and keeping an open mind. While I don’t think that I will ever believe in a deity, I won’t say I won’t. I do like the spa type atmospheres, and the mind, body, spirit ideas they tend to have. But these are more philosophies than religions. I would like to thank Lucy for her interest in my story, and anybody who may read this. I also want to applaud you if you tolerate and support others in their ways and beliefs.

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3 responses to this post.

  1. YAY! Go Steve! and I still think you should post more of your opinions on here! 😀

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  2. You Should look into more of the eastern religions. They seem like someting you would like

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  3. Hallo an alle
    Toller Blog, aber leider sehe ich nur die hälfte.Ist Euch das bekannt?
    Liegt das an meinem Safari?

    Grüße aus Mannheim

    Reply

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